I need someone to love me
I need someone to care for me
I need him to always hold his breath
Whenever he sees me

I want him to lie down with me
To gaze at stars

And the fact that I don't have this that I want
Make's me yearn for it the more

You should be reading this
You should realize you are the one
You should come soon enough.

You told me i was beautiful
A treasure to be kept
I believed your words
Against my Judgement

But now i know better
Your words were ALL beautiful lies

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to you ALL
I pray this year brings you so much joy and happiness. Wishing you all the best in life.😄

My New Year resolution post coming soon.

I was always looking for a type
I had specifics
But when i found you
On that lonely road
I realized i found someone better

And that road is my new  favorite place
And our story is my favorite love story
And you are my favorite person

You are ALL i could never
Imagine in my wildest dream.

December Party

Hello blog readers

Merry Christmas and happy new year in advance.Hope you holiday was terrific?

Am so sorry have not posted in a while.It's been a busy week for me because i am part of the organizers of  a get together for my secondary school classmate.It was so much fun,most of them i haven't seen in 5 years so it was dope.Shout out to Emma elshaddai class of 2011.It went down at Atican beach.

I decided that once in a while,i would be uploading 10 music that are awesome.
so for today's

1. Adele:Hello

2. Justin Bieber: Love Yourself

3.Taylor Swift:Wildest Dream

4. Meghan Trainor:Like I'm Gonna Lose you

5.Shawn Mendes:Stiches

6.Gwen Stefani:Used To Love You

7.Selena Gomez:Same Old Love

8.Ed Sheeran:Photograph

9.One Direction:Perfect

10.Cam:Burning House

I hope you enjoy them.Stay tuned for more mind blowing music

A POEM: DOMESTIC VIOLENCE.

Right from when i was small

I always see dad beating mom

And i wonder why she never hits back

She was full of scars and fresh wounds

And she covers it when outside the house

She died few years later

I guess her body grew weak and

Got defeated by dads punch

And now i see myself

Beating my wife

The same way dad beats mum

But i don't want to be dad

And i don't want her to die as mom did.

Society says they only accept the skinny ones
So everyday i starve to be the size they want
But i became thinner than they expected
And now they say i caught some disease

Society taught me to be artificial
so i always go out with my face fully made up
I barely recognize myself in the mirror
And now they call me ugly
When am without makeup
Because the makeup made my beauty fade

Society taught me that i would be accepted
Only if i use a 24 Inches weave
And now am starting to get addicted to fake hair
But i realized they are accepting ladies with the natural hair now
I wonder how long they discard the Natural hair ladies

Weird enough
Society is us

I want to tell my stories
Stories of my boring life

I want to tell stories
Of my Imaginary life

So sometimes
 My stories could be sad
 My stories could be happy
 My stories could be hot
 My stories could be cold

It all depends on my mood.
It all depends on my imagination



If you haven't noticed,i have decided to start writing poems[Yippee].So keep this space.

Friday Quote

I know most times we talk without realizing how hurtful our words can be,Our intention might not be wrong but our words might be.
I was talking to someone that is very dear to me and i didn't realize when i said some hurtful words,clearly it wasn't my intention but she does not know that she only knows i hurt her with my words.As my friend would always say 'Your words and not your looks says much of who you are'.We should always think before speaking because the truth is we don't know what the other person might be going through and our words make them feel bad than they already are.

I still cant believe you left
It seems so surreal
You left without explanation
You should have given excuses

Now i will forever question what i did wrong
Now i will forever question where i went wrong
Now i will forever be weary of the word love

Do you miss me at all
Cos i still have you on my mind

I cant even hate you
Cos am thinking the fault is with me
Did i suffocate you with my love ?
I need at least a phone call from you,to explain
Where i went wrong

How It All Starts:Domestic Violence

I am trapped here
I'm just a furniture in your home.
I thought we shared something real and rare
I thought i had finally found love
So when you asked me to be with you forever
When you asked me to be yours
I readily accepted you and i hurriedly said
I do in the presence of God,Priest and guest

I never thought you wanted to own me
I never thought you wanted me as another
Prize you win and lock at home
Until i couldn't talk without being talked to
Until i had to agree with everything you have to say,
Even if it was wrong or I had a different opinion.

Then i saw your anger,once when i didn't make your food on time
You hit me so hard i fell and
It became a ritual/an everyday habit
that i always have a fresh wound on old scars

I couldn't leave,what would society say?
Why is she leaving her husband? he takes care of her
See all the nice dress she wears,her golds.
did she think there's husband outside
If some even knew he beats me,they would justify him
Saying maybe he's frustrated that he does not have a child yet
So he's taking it out on me
So i would leave out the part of  "how i had 3 miscarriage
due to his fist"

What will my parent say?
You have to bear it,when you start having children,
He would stop beating you
You are a married woman,it would be a disgrace to come back to your parent house
What do you want people to say?
We would be a laughing stock
So they would ask you to stay and promise to always Pray and remember you in their prayers

So with that you would go on living with him
Until that day he would beat you so bad
that before you are rushed to the hospital
you give up the ghost

Then your parents would wish they had taken you away when you cried to them
Society would realize the plight of women in a violent home
And you would wish you have thought about only yourself
And not about society/parent
And maybe you could have found someone better
Or you could have been single but ALIVE.

Domestic violence should be a capital offence,maybe men would realize that they could go into rings when they are frustrated and punch bags.
I know a 16 years old girl,she was telling me about her relationship issues and she told me that the people she dates and really like her always hitting her when they are angry[this guys range from 20-22]and i felt so bad for her because she had started seeing it as normal at that age but i tried my best to advise her.

I also see a wife beater material in a guy that beats his sister,am never for a parent to allow a senior brother beats his sister[except in a case that she did something really bad].Most guys they feel they can hit any girl because they hit their sister.There are some instances when i was in school and am arguing with a guy he gets annoyed and tells me am not his sister that he beats at home mate and am like thank God am not your sister.

I also think parent have a large role to play in teaching boys how to respect girls.They should never make them feel superior than the girls.

Friday Quote

Be that lady that do not need a man to survive.You can build your empire through hard work

I saw this on a site,so i decided to share.Hope the songs inspire you

Make yourself an independent woman playlist! Give yourself a new, upbeat soundtrack to help you through. Some of our personal favorites are Gloria Gaynor’s I Will Survive, Florence & The Machine’s Shake It Out, Whitney’s It’s Not Right But It’s Okay and Shania Twain’s Man! I Feel Like  A Woman. Remind yourself that you are a strong, independent woman and you can achieve anything you set your mind to.

Love

I can see it
I can feel it
I can sense it

I see it in the tender and intense way you look at me
I feel it in the urgent but loving way you touch me
I can feel the love you have for me

A love so pure
A selfless love
You my lover make this love a beautiful story
Without you,I would never have felt love,never experience love
I would still be doubting if love ever existed
Or if it was just people's imagination to escape from the hell of a lonely life.

So I stand with you today,as I would stand by you forever
I take your hand's with a promise never to let go
I take your heart,cause I own it and give you mine to own.

Friday Quote

This Quote is self explanatory.I hope we all think positively and we reach our goals in life.

Reflection

I look at my reflection
I see a different person staring at me
This is what I have been reduced to
Since you left me
I lost flesh
I lost strength
I lost my mind

I glance at old pictures
Although I was chubby, but I was happy
Although I was simple, but I felt beautiful.
Now am a shadow of some other person
Can't recognize myself in the mirror
Still trying to figure out,how it came to be

And for the countless time
I wished I had never met you.

Most time, people go through so much because their partner breaks up with them.You don't have to be the person in this story. You don't have to lose yourself. If they can't appreciate your sacrifice and love, let them go, you will find a better person.Don't feel depressed,he is not worth it.Get up,pray to God,Work on yourself to make a better you then the best will come to you.

Friday Quotes

So many of us has heard,seen and moved by this quote,but we never act on it.
You must be the change you want to see in the world.Many of us put blames on our leaders for not caring about citizens and its so obvious that most of us don't care about our neighbors who have less.We prefer to buy bags/material things worth million than to help a beggar.

       Mr A is living comfortably.
Everyday he passes his neighbor's room and can hear them grumbling about how hungry they are.He never cares neither does he help.Mr A becomes a political leader.What do you think will happen.He never cared about 1 neighbor,how will he care about million's suffering.

We should learn to be what we preach.We should learn to love our neighbors as we love ourselves.

Let every moment you live be what you teach

The best leader the world has ever known are reformers who are accountable and responsible for their change.

Lastly,"to be the change we want to see in the world" means to know what is happening around us and to take powerful steps towards constructing the life and world of our dreams.Seeing the change we want to happen will take much of our effort of wanting,choosing,and commingling your actions to stand for what is right.

Not Again!!! Another Terrorism Attack

I walk with fear,i caution myself when talking.I am scared i might say the right thing to the wrong people,and i would be attacked.I want to speak on the attacks in recent times.The religion extremist that hide behind a religion[Islam] because they know most people don't understand Islam but have just accepted it.
  So these coward hide behind it and do evil things all in the name of Allah.Since they believe him to be a powerful God,why cant they let him fight himself ?.But to be honest i don't understand what they are fighting for or against.As Flannery O'Connor Quote says "You have to quit confusing madness with mission".Where is our humanity,you go around killing children,men women without conscience,no love for your fellow human.
     I guess tolerance as a very large role to play in today's society,we should be able to tolerate each other despite our religion,opinion,because we are all different.We should also love our neighbor as we love ourselves.I fear for the young generation,because they will take this attack as a norm,My heart goes out to everyone who has lost a loved one in terrorism attacks.we should all work together to curb terrorism,because terrorism is not a problem against a particular society,It is against HUMANITY.So now is not the time to point out fingers at Muslims.Its the time to teach our-selves  the true meaning of Love,Right from Wrong,Tolerance and let Allah fight for himself if there must be a fight.
I pray for countries that have been affected by this attacks,I also pray for these religion extremist,i pray God make them see all they are doing in the name of religion is wrong and barbaric,and no human deserve the pain they inflict on them.


Lets love one another
it goes a long way
lets know whats right from what is wrong
and do what is right at all time

i know is right to love my neighbor
that i would always do,i hope you do that too
i know its wrong to kill
so the holy books says
so i would not take any life with my deeds, talks or actions.

lets tolerate one another
it helps in times of crises
though we might differ in religion
we still have to stand as one
because at the end of the day
we only have ourselves
so lets stand together.

FRIDAY QUOTES

No matter who we are,how old we are or where we are from.We all share a common goal to be successful.However our definition of success may differ.We all want to have a successful life-drive a nice car,build houses,excel at what we do.But we don't want to work towards achieving success,we all want it on a platter of gold without working for it.
            To achieve success you have to put in hard work,and learn from our mistake.We should not allow failure bring us down.Define your success and work towards it.“I wish I was that successful”, “When will I reach that success?” Stop considering success from a point of view where success is different from you as an individual, and is merely something you hope to attain one day.

After I learned these tricks, I have always felt happy and inspired to do more. Instead of searching for some distant success, search for success in your day-to-day life—find success with the smallest bits of work that help you reach your goal. Then stay committed to those habits and strive to live them daily.

FRIDAY QUOTE

The biggest Mistake you can ever make in life,is to be scared to start all over.It could be a Relationship,Work,Project,Relocation.A friend of mine was in a relationship for 3 years with a guy that didn't care about her,but she was so into the relationship that the thought of starting over scared her.she just had to stay.But when she left,she said she felt so much self worth that was lost while she accepted those bullshit in the relationship.

   Starting all over can help you learn how to love yourself better and be happy as an individual.

                                   STEPS TO TAKE WHEN STARTING ALL OVER

Talk to  God.When everything seems so difficult and you are @ a crossroad,talk to him.Let him be your motivation.

Don't hesitate to act.Don't say its too late to start all over,because the truth is no matter the time you start your journey,you should only focus on your goal of getting there.

Know that you will definitely face critic,they would wonder why you are giving everything up.Don't let them win you over by talks or discourage you,If you are sure its the right path to take.

                      

           Always Remember that to start all over is a GIFT,not everybody gets the chance to do so.I pray none of us take the gift of starting all over for granted.